Tag Archives: grief

It’s been nine months since she died

Posted on March 8, 2011 by

Nine months ago, the one true love of my life, my Barbara, passed away. The pain is only slightly less intense than it was in the first weeks. I was so busy then. There were two memorial services to plan, … Continue reading →

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Fibromyalgia is still flaring, but the warmer weather seems to have helped. I don’t do well with cold. That’s one of the main reasons I avoided moving to where Barbara would have preferred to live. Finances are still tight, but … Continue reading →

Posted on December 16, 2010 by | 3 Comments

Six months ago, or “A Reason, A Season, A Lifetime?”

Posted on December 8, 2010 by

June 8. Six months ago. And I am still here, and slowly getting better. I wonder still if I will ever be better. Or is grief, like life, a journey with only one way out? Will I grieve the rest … Continue reading →

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Homework

Posted on December 1, 2010 by

Went to see the therapist today, for the first time since Barbara died. (We have history, as he was treating her for complex PTSD before her hospitalization, and I was going with her.) The session helped me a lot. No … Continue reading →

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Why Do We Deny Ourselves The Right To Grieve?

Posted on November 19, 2010 by

I think it is time we stop trying to treat grief as a mental illness, and allow people the right to grieve in this society. There are valid sociological, psychological, and physiological reasons for grief, or we wouldn’t experience it.

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Monday, anti-depressants, and support groups

Posted on October 18, 2010 by

Midday Monday I go see the doctor who originally put me on Cymbalta. She’s the neurologist who is treating me for epilepsy and fibromyalgia.

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Four months ago

Posted on October 7, 2010 by

In a few hours, it will be four months since Barbara died from complications of lupus. In that time, I have found a way to continue day-to-day.

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Today is a better day

Posted on September 13, 2010 by

Damn, I am getting emotional and over-reacting. My reactions to the events of yesterday truly were out of proportion. I know why.

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Today is a bad day

Posted on September 12, 2010 by

It appears I have completely destroyed my relationship with Kris and Rebeccah. My grief and the way I am expressing it is too much for them to handle. It’s not their fault. I know it is mine. It still hurts.

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And more about how I’ve been doing

Posted on September 10, 2010 by

I’ve had a rough few weeks. Honestly, having the family here hasn’t been nearly as helpful as I hoped. Yes, it stopped me from choosing to follow Barbara in the first couple of months, but I still feel so alone … Continue reading →

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