Category Archives: grief

Today is a bad day

Posted on September 12, 2010 by

It appears I have completely destroyed my relationship with Kris and Rebeccah. My grief and the way I am expressing it is too much for them to handle. It’s not their fault. I know it is mine. It still hurts.

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And more about how I’ve been doing

Posted on September 10, 2010 by

I’ve had a rough few weeks. Honestly, having the family here hasn’t been nearly as helpful as I hoped. Yes, it stopped me from choosing to follow Barbara in the first couple of months, but I still feel so alone … Continue reading →

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It’s been a while

Posted on September 8, 2010 by

Yes, I have been absent for a while. I have been busy working out a multi-generational household, and all that entails. Of course, I’m still crying at odd times and for no apparent reason.

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I survived

Posted on August 2, 2010 by

I made it through my first holiday as a widow. I baked bread (by hand), and gave a share to Lugh, as appropriate. The bread was good. But by the Gods, I miss her.

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Barbara’s Pagan memorial service

Posted on July 26, 2010 by

What an interesting day. Continue reading →

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The music of our life together

Posted on July 24, 2010 by

Over the last few days, I’ve been consulting on the planning for Barbara’s Pagan memorial service, which occurs tomorrow at 3pm. I’ve gathered items for the altar, tools for use during the ritual, and helped plan (and in one case, … Continue reading →

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Anger Phase of Grief

Posted on July 14, 2010 by

I am pissed. I am angry at my Goddess. I am angry at myself. I blame myself. I know the psychology of grief. And yes, I am in the anger phase. But it’s more than that, and I have a … Continue reading →

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Bonnie Tyler – Total Eclipse of the Heart

Posted on July 8, 2010 by

No elaboration required…

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Today is my birthday …

Posted on July 8, 2010 by

Today is my birthday. Unfortunately, it is also the one month anniversary of Barbara’s death.

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A good conversation

Posted on July 6, 2010 by

Jesse and I went out to Carrabba’s Italian Grill for dinner last night. And for the first time in a very long time, I had wine with dinner.

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